This one was brutal. I had surgery on the 8th and this was another 14 hour enormity. I don't recall many of the details but the tumors had once again entangled the intestines and a total of 64 or so tumors were removed. I also got the new experience of coming out from surgery with an intubation, doing all my breathing and preventing me from talking.
I went nuts. I was losing my mind. I thought I was in another part of the world, I could not identify truth from fiction and I weaved extraordinary story lines in my mind. They had to restrain me to keep me from pulling out the tube and, once the tube came out, I then went psychotic again an pulled out my NG tube, forcing them to put in another one.
I have never felt so helpless or scared in my life. What is a person if not for their mind and I could not find mine.
Additionally, my left arm has gone partially numb from about mid-forearm through the thumb and first two fingers. It is weak and I am working on trying to restore it to normalcy (or something close to it).
We finally got moved out of ICU yesterday and are now in a nice comfortable 5th floor room. I am still having extreme trouble sleeping and focussing but things are slowly moving forward. I have started clear liquids and hope to progress to full liquids soon.
That is about all I can write at this point but want to let everyone know what we are slowly progressing. Returning home will probably not be for a week or more yet but I am up and I can walk. Looking forward to seeing everyone soon!
--Ron
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